Keep that in mind for later.
My favorite two boys...keep that in mind for later too :)
I have been having a lot of bad days lately. It seems like its always one thing after the other, which is fine because isn't that what life is all about? We are here to be tested. between my current job, my emotional garbage, not getting a job I really wanted and getting some bad news last week, I have been fighting my natural instincts to let it get to me. But we are also here to be happy..."men are that they may have joy". But can a girl catch a break? Lately it seems almost all my joy has come from my husband, which I discovered tonight, is just enough and then some.
*side note* I am REALLY bad at suppressing my feelings. I wear my heart on my sleeve and I feel things..differently... stronger than other people. Its my blessing and curse...anyway that's another story.
So on top of my inner "sadness"...I had a crappy day, again! really? I mean awesome. So I came home just really .....unpleasant. I feel really bad for poor Garrett, he has really had a crazy wife and he has been so great...(most days ;) but hey, no one is perfect. Anyway, back to today. I had my breaking point when I opened up my 1.09 sonic cheeseburger and it was mutilated. It looked like a 5 year old played with it before they put it in the bag for me, you get what you pay for I guess. Yes, a cheeseburger was my melting point. I can't help it, I love my food. Anyway, as I am crying over my inner issues, this horrid day, and my burger..my sweet husband comes and holds me and kisses me and asks me what would make me happy. I want to point out that he was sick and had just thrown up. I needed out of the house so we went out to the mall and just walked around and came home and did my favorite thing...DANCED, to my new favorite song...Soul Sista by Train and it was glorious! My wonderful, sick, unselfish husband danced with me and even Chauncey joined in. I am a firm believer in dancing things out....I also believe it works better when you dance with someone else. I knew when I got engaged to Garrett I was going to be marrying my best friend, tonight, that was reaffirmed to me and I am so thankful for that...I also realized today, that at the end of the day, none of the stupid things people do that hurt your feelings, a job you hate, or even a new broken phone and a mutilated burger...don't really matter. And if at the end of that long hard day, I can dance around and let loose with someone who makes me laugh when I didn't even want to smile...then that is what counts, that's what matters. I got really lucky in life. I may not be rich, I may hate my nose, my job, and that I still haven't finished school, I may never get that love and attention from certain people that I want, my family may be dysfunctional, and I may have a lot of emotional baggage, but I married my best friend...not everyone can say that, but I can and I am so grateful because you can't ask for anything better than that :)
After a good "dance out"
