Oh dear

Baby L repeatedly kicking the crap out of her brothers face

Bud B finally kicks back

He is smiling cause he is so proud of his little self.

At least until she flips and sits on his face

Something tells me I'm gonna have my hands full ☺️

Feet

If you know me... I mean even a tiny bit at all, then you are well aware of my deep destain for feet. I abhor them. I don't care how "clean" yours are, they repulse me.

I blame my grandmother for scaring me as a child. I used to scrape the calluses off her foot with the anticipation that a treat was waiting for me after words such a candy bar or fried gizzards. Country much? Thinking about It now makes me wanna hurl.  Ewww, just ewwww.

So who would have ever guessed that I would spend my days hoping and praying I would get to feel a foot. The later I go in this pregnancy the harder it gets. Between the anxiety, tears, anemia, back pain, acid reflux, and utter boredom from being strapped to the couch, some days I'm barely hanging on. But oh baby, when I feel those really strong kicks my heart skips a beat because I know. I know when I  press my hand on my belly, I will feel it. A tiny little foot. His tiny little foot.  I LIVE for those moments. For those few little second we are connected, he knows  I'm  there and I am as close as I can get to holding him. I feel his heel and all at once my heart swells. Sometimes my heart is so full that I cry. I cry because I think about that moment when I will finally hold him. I think about kissing those tiny little feet that I have become so attached too. I think about how deep in love I will fall. I think about the moment where he becomes mine and I become his. I think about his sensitive, little spirit fresh from heaven and I cry. Then I realize, when I am holding him so tight, he will no longer be growing inside me. And that makes me cry too. Because I won't have those sweet little kicks. He won't be with me everywhere I go and I will no longer be able to shield him from this big scary world. I cry because he will be so exposed and I won't always be able to protect him.  I cry because I am overwhelmed at the thought that the second he is born he will begin to grow and it will all be too fast. Despite the difficulties and bad days, I absolutely love being pregnant. It's like magic. It's magic going on right inside me. I can't wait to meet these little buds, but I am so in love with having them within me. 

I know this post was all about Bud B, but I haven't felt Baby L's feet yet, even though she is incredibly active. I also want my kids to know I love them individually and that my relationship with each of them is different and special. 

Oh little buds, you're kicking my trash... But I am loving it.

Year 4

Well, its another day strapped to the couch. So I may as well occupy my little self by blogging our 4th Anniversary.....

GB and I recently celebrated 4 years of marital magic. Our anniversary was on a Thursday so we planned to have a nice little dinner at  home and then really celebrate on Saturday.

Thursday we headed up to Super H Asian market to snag our very favorite dinner. YAKI SOBA! mmmm
I made some cheesecake for dessert, we blew out candles, and watched a movie. It was a nice relaxing evening. Esp. since little buds keep me down most of the time :)

Saturday we made the short 30 minutes drive up to Dahlonega. It was such a great day. The weather was absolutely fabulous. We started the day sampling the goodies at the farmers market. I just love home grown goodies! These tomatoes were scrumptious!!!!

22 weeks here!

We strolled around old town and played with some puppies up for adoption. I of course fell in LOVE. I named him Dirk.

We walked around the square and got root beer out of bottles. One thing GB and I love to do in old time feel towns is antique shop. We even caused some mischief :) we like to stay young.

Ssshhh I price tagged my root beer bottle 

                                   

We found this little hole in the wall with the most delicious BBQ! Bonus: it was also cheap.  The had this delectable corn bread hash thing. I was able to re-create it at home...Happy happy gal!

After we stuffed our gourd we made our way to the gold mines. We took a tour and panned our own gold. yep, between the two of us...we have three little flakes. Looks like the babies are gonna be set for life.

After we became billionaires we made the drive to the top of the Amicalola Falls and laid in the grass laughing and soaking up with sun. It was grand.

Before we headed home GB and I attempted to hike to a view point from the bottom. Babies didn't want me to walk anymore so I sat on a rock and waited for the GB to go look and come back. In the meantime I was bullied by a gang of bugs. Rude.

We took the long, countryside drive home. It was glorious. We rolled down the windows, pulled back the sunroof and blasted the country music. It was a perfect way to end the day, beautiful view, great music and holding hands with my bestest bestie. 

As the 4th year approached I reflected on ALL our years together. I thought about how much my life has changed and how much I have changed because of Garrett. I feel like he was this really cute boy on a magic carpet and he grabbed my hand and took me along. Kinda like Aladdin, except I was the street rat and GB's personality is a million times better than that annoying Aladdin. I have been so blessed to see so much of the world and experience so much life with him. In the 6 years we have been together we have been to a total of 4 continents, 13 countries, 61 cities, LIVED in Europe, moved to 3 different states, GB graduated from the top IMBA program in the nation, we bought a house, grew stronger from really tough lows, are loving stronger with two wee ones growing in my belly, and oh so much more! Its been the most magical 6 years of my life (including the 2 years of dating) I know they say the best is yet to come, but I can't imagine our relationship getting any better than it is right now.  I am loving life with him and savoring these last precious weeks we have of just the two of us. I couldn't imagine a more perfect person to share this huge adventure with and I couldn't be more grateful for all the love and support he has and continues to give me. He has help me become a better person and I am thankful that as the years go by we find ourselves growing toward each other and not apart. 

Thanks for good, the bad, and the magical GB! Love you