Some Days

I know I have been HORRIBLE at keeping this sucker up to date...my B. What can I say? I am just flat out lAAzy! While I should be writing about our summer adventures...I have other things on my mind. Sorry about this post, its more of a..vent post :) But hey, life's not perfect

Some days are just so hard to let go of anger and hurt. I have had a great summer, but a challenging summer as well. I've had to deal with a few people who have been making my life unnecessarily difficult. For the most part I can say to myself, "Meagan, don't let this upset you. You can choose to not be emotional and not let this bring you down." For the most part, I listen. But some days....I just can't seem to want to be good. I get so mad and frustrated and to be honest, a little full of rage. Ughh RAGE, sounds so harsh. But its honest. I want to scream and give them a piece of my mind and then some. I get so naughty on some days that I think, "eternal families are NOT always a blessing...but then again, at least the guidelines are strict." Not that I would pass with THAT attitude.

I have challenged myself this year to let go of whatever drama and stress I can, and to be as Christ like as possible. This includes NOT participating in any gossip and not judging others, but rather try to see them the way Jesus does. This is SO not easy. I think its sort of funny when you pray to the lord to help you with a particular aspect in your life, how he REALLY tests you on it. Its like he is saying, "how bad do you want to be better?" I think I have done well with being classy and staying happy and positive, but its certainly no walk in the park, and I am far from perfect. Lately, when I have my naughty days, I think of Christ. I think of how he must have felt being beat up and spat upon by people he loved, and yet, he said nothing, but rather prayed for them. I challenged myself a few days ago to pray for those who have and continue to hurt me. I'll let you know how it goes. For now the words "pray for those that dispitefuly use you", and "love thy enemies" keeps repeating in my mind...

Pinky promise my next post will be happy and ...upbeat :)