Dear Body,
We have had an up and down relationship the last several years. I have judged you far too harshly for all your "imperfections". I have blamed you for all the years I was sick. I was verbally abusive when you increased in size and cursed you when you didn't decrease said size at the rate I felt you should have. For years I told you that you were not good enough and told you that given the chance, I would exchange you in a second.
Well body, today I am here to apologize. Today I am admitting I am wrong. I am sorry. Body you are awesome, and this is why;
Even though I was sick, you still allowed me to do so many things. Even though I was sick, I could still see, hear, walk, talk, and dance.
All those "imperfections" I saw, they are what make me unique. They are what help tie me to the people I love, because I got those things from them. I thank you for that.
The weight gain, was a combination of you AND me. I take my share of the blame. In that time I was gaining the weight, I was also living. I was REALLY living. I was eating gelato and authentic Italian carbs and it was magnificent and totally worth it.
In the time it took to loose that weight, I was becoming stronger and learning more about myself. Something I would not have, had you dropped the weight when I demanded you to.
But you know what makes you the most awesome?
This....
You made those. YOU did that! How freaking cool are you??? You amazed me. You gave me the very greatest gifts I will ever receive. You not only made these magical creatures, but you brought them into the world. I was scared for that part, but you did it. Not only did you do it, but you did it like a champ. You are strong and powerful.
As I stare at the mirror at my new body; I admire my squishy new tummy (part of me hopes it never goes away) I'm kinda in love with it. Its like my right of passage, it's proof I'm a mom.
I smile back at that sweet scar that seems to smile back at me. It's my badge of honor that I wear with pride.
So body, for all the million and five things you have done and continue to do for me... Thank You. I promise to ignore society and the media when they tell me you don't look right. I will treat you better. I will never again wish to trade you in for any other body. You rock and I love you.
-love meπ
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This is the best post ever! Thank you for writing it! I have been so stressed that I still can't fit into my pre-pregnancy pants. Finally had to go buy some new ones. I should be more grateful for the miracle that is my body and all of the miraculous things it can do and has done!
ReplyDeleteSondra don't even worry about those pants! After I had the babies I went to take my first shower and looked down at my belly and thought holy frig it's still big. Once I looked at those blue baby eyes, I thought... Who the frig cares?! I haven't given my body shape or weight a second thought since then. Our bodies made another human and need time to heal and recover. It's of course important to stay healthy but health isn't determined by a number on the tag of our pants or our scale π
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