Diary of a Mad Woman

This post comes with a disclaimer:
If you are in any way jealous of me living here and do not wish to read my whining then this post is not for you.

Moving On
I know, I absolutely nuts, ungrateful, a brat...yes all of the listed apply. Actually no, I am grateful, EXTREMELY grateful. I have been so blessed to have this unbelievable experience to live abroad and completely be submerged in something so foreign and beautiful. It truly is a remarkable place and I have genuinely enjoyed every minute of it. But I am sickly and have been the past few days. I am not sure about everyone else, but when I am physically sick, it affects my mentality. I am so homesick I can barely stand it. I think its mostly because I just don't feel well, and when you don't feel well, you want to be home. While I adore it here, its not my home.

I have never been a "social butterfly" I don't need to be surrounded by tons of friends. I was always more comfortable with having a handful of really great friends and surrounding myself around family. Right now, I really miss my family. In the words of Micheal Buble...

"Another airplane, another sunny place, Im lucky I know...but I wanna go home"

Hate me if you must ...but its honest. I miss my family so much I could ball my eyes out. I have been really bad about calling home often, but to be honest it makes it worse. I miss home so much more when I call :( Which is also partly why I have decided to delete my Facebook. I need to really focus on my life here and not worry about what I think I may be missing out on back home. I am pretty sure its just because I am sickly and in a few days ill be back to normal, but for today, this is what I am working with.

Don't get me wrong, I am happy and I am so in love with my life, but the people I love are why I love my life so much and I miss them. Anyway, I am crazy and out of my mind and I know you are all thinking, frig Ill switch places with you. Don't worry I'll be back to normal in a day or two. I mean heck, everyone is allowed a little crazy every once in awhile right? In the meantime, to all of my loves at home (parents,siblings,grandparents,cousins,aunts,uncles,and besties included) know how much you are missed by me and how much I love you.